Found.

Hello there again. Sorry about the short absence. I honestly needed to learn how to breathe. I have a tendacy to let my emotions accumulate to massive amounts. Eventually I have such a colossal weight on my shoulders that I just break down. This is one of the many things I will be working on. I wish I could learn to just let things go and be a social zombie. However,I am human and trying to be perfect would only result in a more complicated situation than my current one. I am still confused. I just realize now that there will be things I won't understand until I am older. I also understand that trying to avoid these things is just avoiding the inevitable.
I have spent the past few weeks with Leighn. She and I are both scared. We have talked everything through. We have discussed every single priority. I know that this is scary, but everyone has to start somewhere. I realize that this year is just the start of the rest of my life. I have been so blessed to have such an amazing mother and grandmother. They are always there for me and I know that no matter how far away I am that I can always rely on their love and support. I am ready for this world. I am ready to try. Ready to mess up. I'm ready to live.

As for the smaller details.Sir Francis Alexander Augustan III is doing quite well. I am getting a brand new fishtank in December. I am also getting two Black Moors. Alex swam with them while he was at the fish doctor. I asked the lady about them and she said they were up for adoption. For 5 dollars each I adopted them and am waiting until next Thursday to go pick them up. I am naming one Matthew Knight Star the Fifth and the other one Puck :)