The joy of Justyn.

I may have forgot to mention my other best friends. See Leighn lives in another city. So I have friends here in this town that I see more often. My two closest friends here are Justyn and Kelcie. Savannah is too but she's moving off to college in a little less than a month. We have somewhat lost touch. She's still always great. I also have JoAnna. She is the true definition of a go getter. What she wants..she gets. I have Derrick. He makes me laugh and stands up for me when people annoy me in theatre. Brett. My sweet Bretticuss. He could kick your ass. I don't care who you are. He could. He's super easygoing though. Micah..I hate him. So much but I will miss him when he goes to college. Wilson. He plays guitar and says really cheesy things. My mom loves him. My bestest buddy. Not friend. Buddy..there's a difference. A buddy is someone who you rarely hang out with outside of a certain atmosphere (this on being school). Anywho. My best buddy is Jess. Totally amazing in everything she does. She loves Harry Potter. Listens to all indie music. And makes jokes that only she and I laugh about. And she always steals other peoples things and puts them down her shirt. And lastly. My 2nd really good buddy is Kasey. She listens to classical music and Pink Floyd. She is super smart and reads really cool books.
So anyways. My two closest friends here. Justyn. Gay as gay can be. Think about The Birdcage. Yeah he's a total flamer. And the funniest person you will never meet. Kelcie. She is the exact opposite of me. We are like chocolate and vanilla. We constantly joke about being lesbians. I'm pretty sure everyone takes us seriously. We don't care. We like loud music and yummy food. We talk about everything and nothing..at the same time. We are both passionate about making people laugh. So we are always good company. I love her.
This year is different however. Everyone is going to college. It will just be Kelcie, Kasey, Derrick and Jess. Of course Leighn. I think I can make it though. I have a ton of people I talk to and chill with. I just don't have as big a spark with them as I do my friends.
Off subject and on kind of a lower note: I am scared. I know right now the weeks drag on and it feels like it's going to take forever. I know how this goes. It will fly by faster than I can breathe in and exhale. I don't want to look back at my senior year of high school and realize that I missed any chances. The main thing I fear though is Graduation. I think I had to go through Hell in high school? Wait until I get in the real world. High school is a sheltered dream. The real Hell is waiting for me outside of those walls. I still consider myself "just a seventeen year old". What happens when I have to grow up? I've been waiting all of my life for this and now that the time has come. Am I actually ready for this?